November 28, 2005
know me for wat i am? haha...i think that this is something hard to do la...hahaha...
do i look like a guy to u ppl? hmmm...somethings that i have been thinking...haha..but it doesnt matter...being a guy is also not bad....at least i can do wat i like...haha...but i am still a gal..so~ i still cant do anything i like hahahaha....just as long no more ppl treat me like a les (^^;) i am happy
~ ^^ ~ find something on the book i love...
Even now there is still hope left...i like this line...very simple but have lots of meaning in it...just love this writer...but so sad that his book is not sold in singapore...re-reading the book...found different meaning in it....different feeling...different thoughts...but still the same ending...sad ending...i always wonder wat will happen if the writer change the ending to happy ending...but i think it will not work...the story will different...the feeling will be different...the character of the characters will be different...everything will change and i have a feeling that the story will not be as popular as it is now...
this remind me of something i read in the past...i forget when and forgot wat it is about but i remember this part...i remember that in the worksheet given to us...there is a story...story on romeo and juliet...
i remember the story is something like this...well..should be...cause i cant really remember something tt way hahaha....
romeo and juliet's family have been enemies but they fall in love with each other...their family force them to leave each other...they tried their best to be together...tired their best to talk to their family and in the end...their family were touched and accepted their love and agree to let them to be together...in the end, romeo and juliet live happily ever after...
then at the end of the story, it ask, if romeo and juliet is really written this way, do you think that it will be as popular as it is now? haha...i think we all say no ba...for the reason...i think is because dun really like story with happy ending, as happy ending does not come that easily in real life...so people like to read story with happy ending sometimes, most of the time, people still like to read sad story...i think so...haha dun really remember it.. =p
anyway...i this few days feel sick...having headaches...dun know la...still have flu...cough...
now the fac is against me...stupid...go to hell...hate her...fine give me a D like i care...just shut up!
i feel like vomitting and u still give me so much crap...like i care! go to hell and burn in hell fire!!
YukiNoYume ♥
Monday, November 28, 2005
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November 25, 2005
so many things that i know...so many feeling around...so many sadness...so many things...so many that everyone cant handle it...so many...too many...too heavy to bear...too hard to forget...
but life still must go on...our road is still long...we need to be strong...to be happy...to contiune to walk on...jia you jia you! i will also be behide u all...cheering u..
dun know why...but around me that are sad people...i know they are sad...i know they are smiling but crying behide their smile...but i dun know wat to do...i did not do anything...i cant do anything for them... i felt really sad for them...for myself...i dun know...maybe i am useless...i cant help anyone...the only thing i can do is not to make them more worry then they are right now...tried to make them happy...but i found out then i cant...how to make someone happy when u r sad... dun know why...but i am listening to JJ songs...the more i listen the more i feel sad...the more i feel like crying...cry for them...cry for myself...cry for everything...
never know how much it hurts...how much they have take...how much they fight alone...how many nights they have spend without sleep...how long have they feel this weight on them...how much they have keep to themselves...i have no rights to say them...because i know...i am one of them before...smile when feel like crying...laugh when feel like screaming...hug when need to feel warm...hold on people when need comfort...but will never tell people what really happen...no one really know what they r hiding behide their smiles, their laugh, their eyes...
its hard to cry when u are feeling sad in front of friends cause u dun wan them to be worried... but its harder to smile when u r sad and it will make ur friends more worried...
we all need a break...need to take a rest...need to be alone...need our own space...need our own time...need to forget everything...need to solve everything...
i might be gone for a while...not really gone...but i will be very hard to find for a few days...i need to think about somethings....i need to solve some problems that i have been avoiding...its time to face them...its time for a war to start...a war between me and myself...something really need to be solve...
watever it is...i pray to all the gods, deity, goddness and natural spirit to protect all of my friends, make them stronger, let them solve watever is bothering them, let them smile happily, let them contiune to walk down this road of life strongly and happily and smoothly...
so go on...dun be sad anymore...watever happens...we will get over it and we will grow up...be stronger...able to face it and fight it...and we will WIN it...
YukiNoYume ♥
Friday, November 25, 2005
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November 21, 2005
ok...a lot of things happen...make me dun feel like updating wat happen cause i dun really wan to remember them...BUT i will update those things that i wan to say ^^
let me see if i still remember...
tue: dun remember anything....
wed: wat happen on tt day? hmm...
thu: judo time~wahahaha...like always...have lots of fun ^^V
fri: wat did i do tt day? haha...dun know le...
sat: judo AGAIN!!~~ tt day something very interesting happen wahaha...i think u all know le ^^V
sun: morning went to find siti, eat at her house, then play heart attack and cheat with her bro and sis, then went to watch harry potter!! better then the last movie...but stil lots of part was cut off...haha...saded... then we go play tennis at mao house BUT i WILL never play tennis again...very tired...then go his house play monopoly hehe...i am the second, then he cook and we eat ^^ very NICE~
today, i skip sch =p but still got go sch rot la...so should say is skip class...then ar go to mao house play games, learn chess today...so hard...^^; dun know how to play...then play others games la...then play monopoly waha this time i am the winner~~
haha that all le la...waha...
YukiNoYume ♥
Monday, November 21, 2005
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November 14, 2005
OK PPL!! i am BACK!! wahaha...i am back for a few days le just that i never update...
ok...let me see...
- went to norain house
- went for judo
- done housework
- being a outcast
- being called anti-social
- etc
haha...lazy to list and la...basically...not working well with classmate, quite unhappy in class, but dun worry...i will have my way~ MUAHAHAHAHA!! i will not give up because of something like this! anti-social or wat i dun care...when i have the mood to work on the relationship of me and the class, i will do it...but now~ I DUN CARE~~~
haha....i just dun understand something la...which part of me is anti-social...hmmm...maybe is when i am not talking la...well...communication is a 2-ways process...if i am the onli one talking, it dun work..SO...i am going to wait until i am not this lazy...then i WILL make them talk to ME!!!
now doing sci...sci and more sci...sci is not fun...sci is boring....
ok...to tell the truth...well...hmmm...i am like abit...ahem....bored...about...judo....well...dun know why la...i can not feel the same as judo like before...maybe it's because of the long holiday/break...or maybe it's because of the change of my view towards things...just hope that i can be back to normal...Os is coming to an end...or has it end? haha...anyway...hope all of u do well...going to listen to my stupid sci le...bye...
YukiNoYume ♥
Monday, November 14, 2005
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November 09, 2005
wahaha i will disappear for 2-3 days from now~
i will not go to sch, i will not be at home, i will not bring my handphone, i will not go judo, on one can find me~
yeah~
i am cold la...stupid mayi...steal my things...sad...
today ar...do pepsi and coke...i like coke...but i love 100plus ^^V haha...
still got wat...
dun have le ba...
Oh Oh...wish all those having Os de good luck...today english paper...hope they can do well...
that's all~
wahaha~i will be back 2-3 days lata ^^V
YukiNoYume ♥
Wednesday, November 09, 2005
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November 03, 2005
i am not your maid and never will! stop treating me like one.
i am not the only one that can do all your housework and why must i do it
what am i to you? this is something that i always wanted to know.
i have try my best to do whatever i can, but u just ask for more. maybe i am just not good enough, maybe i didnt try my best, but i am really tired...tired of u tired of this house tired of listen to all you rubbish
i need a rest, i need freedom, i need my whole space...
sometimes i really think that are u fit to be a mother, u dun cook for us, u dun mop the floor, u dun sweep the floor, u dun wash ur son shoes, u dun bring ur son to sch.
yes, u did wash our clothes, pay our sch fees, buy clothes for us, bring us see the doc [sometimes], cook for us when u r happy, bring us for hoildays, but other then all this, in wat way do u think u are a good mother?
watever it is, if u think it show it, then it's something i havent see yet.
right now, i have cook for u and ur son, and both of u just finish all the food like i dun need to eat, and i give up on asking. after eating u all just left the dishes to me, and i supposed to wash it for u all? i didnt eat my dinner yet, and i have to clean watever u all have left.
haiz...wat else do u wan from me? wat else do u wan me to do? do i have to take over the role of mother and do watever a mother should be doing?
i am sick of complaining, sick of being told to do so many things, sick of hearing that girls should do all this job, sick of seeing u on bed doing nothing but watching tv and asking me do things, sick of hearing u said that we are useless, sick of hearing u complain how lazy we are, how much we never help up.
maybe i am really that lazy, maybe i am that useless, maybe i really didnt help up in shop, maybe i am really very tomboy, maybe i am really bad in studiesmaybe i am really that insignificant to u, BUT i think that i am more then that, its just that u never take the time to see the good side of me.
i dun wan to say anymore le...maybe i should start my plan...
YukiNoYume ♥
Thursday, November 03, 2005
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November 01, 2005
am i one of the slowest? haha...maybe i am just running away from all this not very useful problem in life...not very interested in it right now... =p
haha...anyway...today go to sentosa...haha...didnt plan to go there la...but i woke up early in the morning scaring myself tt there is sch today...hahaha...so i just went lor...never got sun burn, but my didi got sun burn..all red...wahaha...
i also didnt plan to go down to the water but got pull down also...haha...
then i drink something tt we are not supposed to drink at our age BUT who cares right =p to me it doesnt taste very nice anyway...
let me see...should got wat...i think dun have le ba....
*yawn* y did i alway found out things tt i dun really wan to know but...haha...dun care le...
YukiNoYume ♥
Tuesday, November 01, 2005
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