April 24, 2006
my nose is going to drop...really going to drop...its super duper going to drop right here right now...
been having this nose block for 3 days...fever come on and off...lucky not high fever...but...I HATE NOSE BLOCK!!
fever still ok...ok will feel cold and hot...but nose block plus flu is not fun...IT NOT FUN AT ALL!!
my poor nose...very poor nose...
the skin below my mouth is rotting!! skin can be peel and its red and itcy and pain...
AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!! wat is happening to me???!!!
let me die let me die!! stupid stupid stupid...
tmr still have training...haiz...
what a ugly way to die..
block nose flu and rotting mouth
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
i cant take it le...nose nose nose stop blocking!!!
YukiNoYume ♥
Monday, April 24, 2006
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April 19, 2006
Fight For Freedom
Fallen angel saw a illusion
Thinking that is the heaven
Falling deeper into the fantasy
She didnt notices the chain around her wings
One day she finally feel the weight of the chain
And struggle to free herself from the deception
The chain that hold her down
Is firmly lock on the ground
A narrow beam of light shine high above
She was sinking deeper into the darkness
With all her might, she pulled the chain out of her wings
Leaving it bloody and broken
With the last of her strength
And pushing her broken wings to the limit
She reach out for the light
And flew out of the dark illusion
She lie down on the soft green grass
Folded her broken wings and cover herself
Blood dyed her pale grey dress and the ground around her
There she die, with a smile on her face...
- copyright by YukiNoYume
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006
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curse all of u, every single one of u, who looking down on us! i curse u curse u curse u!!
which part of their brain do they not understand a thing we say??
i dun care wat colour u are OUTSIDE rp..just as long u ARE INSIDE rp please RESPECT others...
we have feelings too..we are human...how u will feel when someone u hardly know and cant remember the names and FACES give bad comment on the things u try to learn very hard and over and over again over the months?
maybe its for our gd..maybe u know where our mistake are..but do u have to say 'they dun even have the basic'??
i dun know...but i have to control my anger...smile...and make it like i didnt hear it...make it like i dun mind about it...i dun feel well in the morning and one whole day in the super cold classroom doing MATHS and after sch still thinking maybe i can have some FUN during training and ya...someone like u spoilt everything!
if u think u are so great and wonderful and powerful and all...by all means...come and join the club...the day u join will be the day i quit...u can teach all u wan...i will not stop u.
u dont understand wat we have done for this club, u dun know how much pain and effort we have put in, u dun know how much we have train, u dun know how much we improved, u dun know anything, u onli know that u are right.
do u understand the fear of throwing and scare u will hurt tt person? do u understand how much we wanted to improved but cant?
how much do u know us? how long have u been with us?
u wan nice nice soft soft tatami with a good place to train...do u know we have go through all this? do u know that we have been training on this hard tatami on the hard ground?
if u are not yr 1 and i treat u as someone younger then us, i will start scolding and walk off and this might be the last time u see me wearing gi...i dun care about ur belt colour, i dun care anymore about all this. i just wan something fun after sch to do...
im having a fever rite now...lucky i have no sch tmr, if not i will really be in a bad mood tmr...
curse u...
dun turn me into a devil...dun...let me continue to be me...
dun try to force ppl to do the things they dun wan to...cause in the end there will be onli 3 roads to walk, they will really do wat u wan or they will break down and cry or they will just leave it...
i cant stand my headaches anymore..i will not stay up and tok anymore...
i will not follow the flow for long...i will tear my tied wings if i have to...enjoy urself in this club...
YukiNoYume ♥
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
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April 18, 2006
ok updating updating updating
- 17th of april -
1st day of sch...new class new faces new modules new fac new sch and a whole new sem...happy still quite happy...then when class start i saded le...its my 'dearest most understanding and loving' PHY....i was like =.= phy?!?!?!?!?!?! then i have problem doing wat ning call easy work and she finish it in 1hr and i took the whole day looking at the worksheet and do 1 qns onli...
i think if i going to fail...it will be this yr...and if i going to fail 2times..it will be this yr and nx yr...
when i think about i have to live with phy for the rest of my study yrs...OR even my working life...i REALLY feel like dying rite here rite now...how am i going to live with something i HATE so much...omg...just when i think im free from all sci and i HAVE TO DO PHY FOR THE NEXT 2-3 YEARS!! it is just saded...
wish me good luck pals...pray hard i live...
the phy devil is back to hunt me down...
ps: BUT i got a new tarot set from mum ^^V
- 16th of april -
go walk walk see see eat eat with family
then went sing song with family...kana complain sing until very no feeling and 'not their kind of music' and too soft to hear...play song let they sing also kana scolding...never play songs let they play themselves also kana scolding...haiz...dun know wat to do...
wan to buy shoes kana say taste auntie...wear all shoes no nice..cause feet so small and no meat...
wan buy clothes say i cant wear nice nice clothes..
haiz......
- 13th of april -
then meet ber and cara le...tok tok...then ask ning out with us...then go sing songs with them...
then meet mum...and go walk walk...
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ya...about there le...i think i will spend more time on my blog le ba...
phy is slowly draining my life out of me...i have to go slp le if not tmr can not wake up go sch have phy lesson =.=;
ahah...i miss my yr1 lesson le...
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i see many sec sch students go to sch today..then i notices how much i miss going to sch everyday wearing sch uni...stay with the same class with the same teachers...walk around the sch and u know ppl here and there...have a small place where close friends will sit down and tok...when cca is just something u go and do watever u need and can leave when u wan to [for me la] and there is always a teacher in-charge to handle all those problems...
humans always dun know how happy they are at tt time and when they think about it again in the future..they will feel so sad that they didnt make full use of wat they can get and wat they have...
growing older and older...reaching 18 le...a few more years..i might be a working adult le...have to pay the bills..provide own pocket money...spend the money earn by urself...then maybe a few more years down the road...get married..have childrens...haiz..stay at home and turn yellow-face women...
S.H.E de 'I dun wan to grow up'...it will on my top music list...it really reflect how i feel now la...i dun wan to grow up...really dun wan to...let me always stay like this...i dun wan to grow up...
life is an illusion...
it might appear that everything is how u wan it to happen
but its never real
YukiNoYume ♥
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
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April 11, 2006
lets go out this friday afternoon =D
and im reading romeo and juliet =P can anyone tell me wat is thee thy thou ma? he they his?
and the writer fail his english la...the way he write so weird one...maybe is old english style..i dun know...
i go and read le tata~~
YukiNoYume ♥
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
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April 06, 2006
yeah...post all the quiz i done last night and today hahaha..
today go training..very tried..brain going to die le...stupid toilet light spoilt...i have to go my mum room to bath...and i HATE her bathroom...
today training ar...nothing much...do lots of 'looking at world up side down'...and weird weird stuff la...
then today still have a very gd meeting la...should be the best meeting we have so far...most thing done...onli left who is who le la...YAWN...
backaches...headaches...ah ah...sun training...nx tue FOP...nx wed training...nx nxtue and thu training...
BUT OUR POLY HAVE 7-11!!! wahahaha~~so happy...
is it really time to face it? is it time for me to say wat i feel? is it time for me to fight it or run away from it? is it really time to really ask myself wat i wan to do wat i wan to achieve? is it time for others to know i wan to stay or leave?
i dun know..me is strawberry...weak and unable to take stress...well...i think it IS time for me to have a say...
haiz..i MUST have some time with myself again..i need to tok to myself again..just time i try the inside me dun wan to talk to me =.= hahaa..i also dun wan wat im talking la..other ppl might have a small angel and devil in them but i think i have a 'leo me' and a 'cancer me' inside...hahaha...now i wan to 'tok' to both of them...and find some thing i wan to do =p
leo will tell me to stay cancer will tell me to quit...so let see ba~
* u all dun need to understand this *
yawn...me going to bath then slp le...
YukiNoYume ♥
Thursday, April 06, 2006
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Thursday, April 06, 2006
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April 05, 2006
cara have bf le~ so happy for her~~
tmr is their 1st week together hahahaha....~~
me wan go out la me wan go out with u all la...me wan go out me wan go out la....
when u all free? mao still be busy rite?? then stupid ah gong so so so long never see him le..he still around anot =.= thala maybe also busy...dj....i dun know la...i wan to see u all la!!! ber also cara also...
then i miss 4e1 de ren also...1 yr plus le ba...never see each other le..
lets meet~
YukiNoYume ♥
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
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April 04, 2006
YEAH hahaha i spend the WHOLE night packing my comic hahaha...a total of 13 boxes!! haha...but i havent count got how many comic in total la...should be quite a lot...and when i count the money i spend on them...OMG...big number...=D
since im so free..wahaha...i will count how many comic i have and how much in total i spend on them =D
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wa wa wa wa...a total of $3355...and the price is all average onli...cause so is very cheap some is very ex...i just give them a average and SO much!! plus i have count the others comic in my kor kor room!! OMG...total of 627 comic...and total price of $3355...and this is not my full supply...cause i lend some to my friends...and my kor take some and lend to his friends...and it will never come back...
omg...i spend so so much on comic...and this is just a part of it....i havent count those comic which i keep when i was younger...and i havent put down my doraemon comic amount...
but a bit disappointed...cause i still think that i have break my friends 1000comic...it seems that i still have quite a long way to go...373 more comic to go...$2000++ more money to spend...and lots of time and enegry needed to search for all my missing comic...
wa...wa...still cant believe i spend so much...
haha...but if its about 5 yrs and i spend this amount should be still ok ba...?? me sec 1 got pocket money le then start to buy comic de...hahaha...
me going to finish my daddy specialy cooked curry rice and play games and then slp le...too tired le...the boxes all so so so heavy..need to move them up to high high place by myself...nearly got crash by one of the box...T-T
my kor onli know how to wait for me to buy comic and keep them well...dun know how to help to keep one...but now still better le la...at least he will buy the comic he wan to see =P
bb...~~
YukiNoYume ♥
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
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April 01, 2006
april fool day!
haha...not a very important day for me la...cause april fool day or not...bully ppl no need a day one =D
well...so many years...but i hardly see anyone aroud me 'celebrate' this event...
not much of april fool thing happen on me too...
just hope today will end with nothing big happen =p
but i think that ning kana one le hahah...
YukiNoYume ♥
Saturday, April 01, 2006
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