i dont know whats wrong..i just dont feel like smiling, dont feel like laughing, dont feel like doing anything. i just cant find the energy to feel.

this is not the usual me..i know that..but im tired of being the usual me. im tired of just smiling and making jokes and everything. im tired of just listening about others problems.

im tired of people taking me for granted. im tired of being the "not so important" friends. im tired of solving work problems.

im only a human, and humans are selfish. i wan others to fix my problem i wan to blame others for the problems i wan to sit there doing nothing and hope everything good will happen to me i wan others to listen to me i wan everything to go my way.

but i know that it wont happen. i dont like to talk about my problems. i dont like to bother people with my problems. i dont like to ask for help. i dont like to look weak. i dont like to show weakness. i dont like to cry in front of people.

leo's pride + cancer's emotions is my fatal flaws..