February 26, 2007
nothing to depend on..
whats life about?
i wonder..
whats love about?
i dont know..
whats this feeling?
why did i keep everything to myself?
why did i push away all those help?
why...
i feel lonely..
but i move away from all my friends..
i feel hurt..
but i say nothing at all..
my heart is in pain..
tried so hard to ignore it..
shut the door to my heart..
but it gets worst every night..
when the world goes silent,
when everyone sleeps,
my mind starts torturing me,
slowly and painfully..
tears start flowing,
screams start forming,
hearts start bleeding,
night after night..
laying on the bed,
imagine run wild,
things that had never been think of,
start running through my mind.
when cars roams on the road,
when clocks start ringing,
then im allow to sleep,
with tearstain on my face..
wake up in the morning,
finding myself in a cold house,
with cold people,
which others call them my family.
what is family?
i found myself asking.
'family' a strange word
which i start to forget what it means.
'Father'
a man who brings up and looks after a child, they said.
'Father' to me
is just someone who speak less then 4 words in a day to me.
'Mother'
someone who protects and nourishes a child, they said.
'Mother' to me
is someone who scold and force us to do things we hate.
cold world..
cold words..
makes cold heart..
give ice tears..
dont wanna go out anymore,
dont wanna do anything anymore,
dont wanna wake up anymore,
dont wanna cry anymore.
so tell me,
what is life about?
what is love about?
what am i?
YukiNoYume ♥
Monday, February 26, 2007
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